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Half-Degree
02:20
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Bookworm in the street:
Find something to read
There must be something to read.
Bookworm living free,
She's changing her hair
And changing me
Bookworm wants to leave
Find half of a job
With a half a degree
Quiet and complete
A stone in the stream
A bug on a leaf
So hold on to those plans
You've got the world between your hands
Teach them to read again
Bookworm's going home
Free food and a bed
Where the noises are slow
College locked her dreams
Inside of her head
Just out of her reach
"Get out of my head,"
I hope she says in her sleep
I hope she fights with the bed
I hope she tears through the sheets, until she's out of her head
"Get out of my head,"
I said in my sleep
"Get out of my head,"
I'm getting out of my lease
"Get out of my head,"
And I just want to get free
So hop off I-35, get on the exit with me
And we'll drive out of our heads
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2. |
Speak
02:09
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Coming home to rain inside
Reflection is trying to warn me
Look away, that loving gaze,
its horns were trying to gore me
Like you know they do
You've sacrificed some time to see me bleeding through
Let's hear some words from you. Don't think just speak.
Coming home, there's change outside,
I fell asleep before you
Face the way my eyes behave
I see just what I want to.
And, yeah, you know I do.
You know I'd sacrifice my pride to see the good in you.
But you don't have to move
No, please don't leave, just speak.
The drag from Zeus to Jupiter is drawing out the truth in her:
She stopped to watch the magic in the stars.
Coming home and every time the door just locks behind me.
Walking home my steps align with everyone beside me,
But coming home I only talk to people who remind me
Of your color shown in speech.
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3. |
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I sure like to talk about this empty feeling.
Songs about it calm me down before I leave.
One day we will figure out some magic potion,
Kills the doubt and calms us down.
And we'll finally smile showing teeth,
And they'll tell some story that we'll finally believe.
Everybody knows your face, you whistle by on roller skates.
They'd stoop so low if you asked.
One day they will talk it through,
"How'd all the sunshine fall on you, and where'd it go?
Where's room for me?"
And they'll finally smile showing teeth,
And they'll hear some story that they'll finally believe.
Dark around the trail, ended on your tail.
Following around anyone we found.
I was lost, and you were too.
Balanced in the grass, waving people pass.
Your patience ran too thin, I was saving in
So much breath to breathe into you.
Here I am.
Where are you?
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4. |
Different Tones
02:52
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Fifteen alarms, I'm covered in sleep
Don't be alarmed, the city's in sheets
Swore off yourself when I packed up and left from your street
But I've never felt so clenched in your teeth
Come in the basement,
Few dozen sets of eyes
You just want your saving soul to fill a hole in mine
You just want your saving soul to shine
Fifteen alarms. Fifteen different tones.
I need something more. I'll sleep through my phone
I don't want to be just a kid who can't wake up alone, no.
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5. |
All Your Friends
04:03
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It's about time I told you about this hole inside my head I fill with pictures.
It's about time I told you how quickly I'm unwinding and how bad it hurts.
I did for you what I thought I'd never do: cleaned my whole car,
And I changed t-shirts
Because you were one and I promised I'd make two,
Could not have put that any worse
But you and all your friends have got a reason
For acting like you do. I can't hold it against you,
Because you're something that I'm not.
You're something that I'll never be.
Oh, you're so far ahead of me. Look at you. Good for you.
I wish I hadn't come all this way for you.
My head's down and I'm walking through all these people talking
About the things I'll never understand, I'll never want to
And the fingers in my pocket will never touch your hand,
No matter how bad they want to
And I don't get this reassuring feeling people tell me about it must be me
So maybe you can point the way you've seen more
Than I'll ever hope to see
But you and all your friends have found your freedom
That's more than I can say, it's okay
I didn't care that much about you anyway
"We're all the same," you're right, you're so smart
You know where to put the blame
But I'd rather be like anyone than you
You and all your friends should get to leaving
I'm sure you'll be just fine, you do it all the time
All the tally marks on the walls of your mind?
"How do you feel?" I ask, and you say
"It feels so good to be real, and someone else,
is staring at that very same moon," Oh, you're so smart, aren't you?
And you and all your friends should stop repeating yourselves,
"Whatcha wanna do?" And you feel around,
Looking for somebody kinda new.
Well, I'll tell you right now:
I'm not too keen on this bush that you're beating around,
So just leave me alone.
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6. |
Good Advice
02:56
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Clasp your hands, don't touch me, you'll just freeze.
I'm not what you want, I'm what you see.
I am not your train, watch me leave,
Because I give good advice regarding me.
And I am not alone, I'm in-between
I lay down in my thoughts to watch what I've already seen
But everything I play is on repeat
So maybe someone else will crack the screen.
You were there, I saw your face,
Your open smile, with time to waste.
I can't quite make it home if I'm not alone.
Cross your arms, don't touch me, you'll get sick.
All my depth was drowned when the surface got so thick.
I'll stand and talk to you until I get sore,
As my mind bends, and dips around yours.
I love to go too far, I love to live my doubts.
Come on, sink my boat, and let me shout it out.
I will pick myself up when I am
An older, wiser, stronger bearded man.
You were there, I saw your face, I'll stay a while, but these days
I just can't quite make it home
If I'm not alone.
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7. |
Dog Person
02:36
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Thought I saw you in the corner
Didn't make it home till two
So sit me down and tell me
What else is there to do?
I floated on the surface
I never see them cry
But, to feel down is to feel worthless
So, I know: no more blonde hairs in my eyes.
No more whining by the window.
No more hoping you'll survive,
Cause you stop fearing something dying
From the very moment that you know it died
No more fur-ball who will tell me
That I'm not so bad a guy
I'll hang my head until I fall forward
So that I can find some motion in my life
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8. |
Hide
03:31
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Hear me out
I've put more thought into these words
Than you are sad about the sound of them,
And let me down
My hopes have floated in the air
But I know you're watching from the ground
Because you're making money from the crowd
But if you ask me, it should be the other way around
But we can hide from all of this
We could bury ourselves, ignorance is something else.
Don't you think?
Let me go
Your fingers wrapped around my ankle, pulling backwards
Pulling from the flow
Of everything that is true, and pulling towards
Everything that I believed
And, you're too good for tearing at the seams
Because drastic wordplay has never found you in your dreams anyway
But we can hide from all of this
We could bury ourselves, ignorance is something else.
Don't you think?
I never thought that I'd be so ashamed of myself
Mad at myself
Scared of myself
Hiding in myself all the same
And I never thought that you'd so impressed by myself
Changed your mind?
Well, I'll be hiding inside
If you're looking for somebody to blame
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9. |
You Seem Pleased
04:01
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Why'd you run and take my hand?
I'm just the same as everyone else.
High fives and bus rides, I'm trying to prove how good I've never felt
And trying not to breathe all of the dust that I collected on the shelf
We'll watch TV together, keep talking in circles
And re-creating scenes we've seen on commercials
And maybe if it seems like we're smiling and having good times
We'll walk around the edge of our circle of doubt
And we'll mention names of people who we most hate to talk about
Cause maybe if your broken heart can taste revenge, it'll taste like glue
And every time I run this route I'm burned
But you seem pleased with me, so who can get hurt?
Break the fence, and clear the stands
You're something else, but yeah, you know that
Trust me: you can trust me
I'm just wasting words, but that's where I'm at
Still, I'm trying not to breathe until I know that you believe me for a fact
We'll watch TV together, start mocking their voices,
And making one another feel secure in the choices we make
Pretending we're the same
We'll walk around the edge of the lake
There's a drought, but that's something we agreed we're both
Just not gonna talk about
Maybe all the clouds are hiding softer feet to pad on the shore
Every time I run this route I'm burned
But you seem pleased to see
All the heat that comes with hard work
And I think you are pleased to see me too
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